22th June 2006

I din reali like the position im offered. Afterall it is just high class admin, second, I isn’t even what I applied for. Third it isn’t exactly the nearest location to work in. (Tampiness isn’t at my doorstep)

But I took it anyway. The pay attracted me. In fact, it could be the main reason why I took the job. Why I wanted the job, was also because I couldn’t stand staying at home, jobless anymore. I almost felt useless. Not that I get any support from my family. Maybe it is cuz we never communicate in the past, everytime we talk it will sound like we are fighting. The harshest comments came from my brothers, who told me “To be contented with a job”, and “Don think of wearing a cap that is too big for your head”

I guess I am just the kind of person who can’t be spited, cuz a fire will come over me and I will do the thing just so that they cant say me anymore.

Its ok if the job isn’t sth that I wanted, cuz in my life, nothing seems to be what I wan.. I wasn’t born knowing that I wan to study Banking and Finance, so who knows, mayb I was borned to be in this department. It just doesn’t sound glam that’s all.