29th June 2006

why did i even bother to ask?
When i know all you will say is no?

Maybe deep inside
i wish that maybe once,
you will just say "ok"
instead of an upfront "No"

I respect you
but i hope you will stand in my shoes
perhaps thats exectly how you feel too

Guess it is impossible to talk anything to you.

I am not going to act immature and shout and cry about it

But i am pissed
maybe hurt
maybe sad
maybe angry

I guess i will still try
try to get your consensus first

i know it is easier if i don ask and just do it

But it is not in me to do it.

I just wish that you can see
that i have already given up certain things
Maybe you don think it is anything
But i only wish that you will just say "yes".

I din reali set my heart on going
But i still asked any way
I just wanted to try your reaction
and you acted exactly the way i predicted.

Is it even possible
that the day will actually come?