now that i have alot of time in my hands,
i keep reflecting.

I am a person who likes to think
to fill my mind with all sorts of thought
may i just don like to waste time
so at least i am still doin someting w my brain

i think i have a lousy track record for keepin friends
now that i think about it
there were so many friends that were once in my life
who have touched and changed my life
but as i searched
they are now-where in sight now

what happened?
what went wrong?
is it me?
is it them?
is it the situation?
or is it just me.

i still can remember the happiness i have enjoyed in the friendships
but where have it all gone to now?
there are only polite smiles
awkard silence
and hasty byes
why?
where has all the love and warmth in the friendship gone?

i guess its just so me
to b able to apprehend the situation
yet
do nothin about it
regret and moan over a fading friendship
yet refusing to press "send" on the phone

why is it so hard to pick up pieces of old friendships?
are there regrets in everybodys' lifes
where there are always a special relationship, that has been left on the shelf?
that everyone yearns to recover,
but just cant find the will-power to do it?

is it Laziness?
it that past friendship just something worth "keeping in your memories"
why is it so hard,
to keep in contact?

looking at the dog-ear autograph book
so many times we carelessly said "keep in touch!"
but how many kept their promises?

in your life,
how many people have left their prints in your heart
but you have lost contact with?

are you reali that busy?